15 Feb I Am Pregnant With My Mother
While everyone is writing about career goals and climbing the corporate ladder, I must be ‘out of my mind’ to write about such absurd stuff. What can I say! These corporate games don’t tempt me anymore. Why should I play with kid stuff when there is something more powerful, surreal, attractive and addictive to hold on to! You want to know what that is? Alright, read on then. 🙂
As I said, I’m pregnant with my mother. She resides in my belly and has been living there for many years now. She gave me nightmares during the time she made her presence felt. I still remember how I used to tremble with fear, day and night, sitting locked up in my apartment, seeing things that I couldn’t explain or understand. I never let anyone enter my house fearing that they might also see what I see. This lead to the beginning of a new era in my life — an era of total seclusion, devoid of any human contact. At least that’s how I saw my situation back then. It took me quite a few years to understand that any transformation, that has the potential to rip apart the very fabric of existential belief system, has to be experienced alone, without any input and interference from the outside world. It’s as if the universe conspires to create situations around you that force you into seclusion. Sounds crazy? Well, anyone who has had a glimpse of the realms beyond the physical, will understand what I’m talking about. All I can say is that I didn’t consciously ask for it. Perhaps my time had come. When the inner core ripens, it’s just like a fruit ready to be plucked…out of the body. The only difference is that a fruit falls to the ground towards gravity but when the inner core ripens, it defies the law of gravitational pull and rushes upward like an unleashed stream of energy after having stayed dormant for ages.
By now, most of you would have understood that I’m referring to the Goddess power, the Cosmic Mother, the primal energy, the Feminine, that lies at the base of the spine in every human being. Not visible to the physical eye, it’s THE potent medium to connect with the universal energy.. the energy from where all of us have evolved. The spiritual evolution begins after the primal energy leaves its abode, the base of the spine, and journeys upward towards the top of the head. The portal to the unseen opens up while the energy, throbbing in the spine, pierces through the major energy centers, touches the crown and then slithers down to settle in the belly. This whole time a person can experience visions and enhanced intuitive abilities and receive cosmic messages.
Today I felt compelled to write about Her because she again teased me like she used to do years ago. Twice in a row in three days, being pulled out of the body, can be quite unsettling. Not in a bad way though. For the first time ever, I wasn’t afraid to feel the energy spinning in my belly with an extraordinary speed. My eyes were closed but I could see something that apparently looked like coiled wires hanging on top of my belly. I could feel an intense churning in my midriff, and in a split second I snapped out of my body. I remember floating in the air for some time and then zooming out through the walls into a different realm.
I know most people would kill for such an experience but do they even know what lies beyond? We have been told for ages that our body is our temple. What if it really is, literally? What if we are safe in this temple of ours and not anywhere else? There must be a reason why soul gravitates back to the gross body every time it slips out. What if there is a chance of it getting trapped in some lower astral realms? There is a chance that it might never find its way back home. So…tread with caution.
There have been countless accounts of people across the globe who have had an out of body experience (OBE). Some of them say that they were frightened and got catapulted back to their body in no time. Others say that they felt very peaceful and didn’t want to go back. Why are there different versions of the ‘unseen’ after all? Shouldn’t there be one version….one truth? Is there a possibility that everyone creates his own reality …his own dimension (beyond physical) based on his thoughts, actions, experience and spiritual maturity? Is it just possible that any dimension, whether physical or ethereal, is nothing but one grand manifestation of the cosmic mind and we all are characters in this cosmic drama, dancing to the tune of cosmic thoughts?
As are our thoughts, so will be our projected reality, in this realm, and the realms beyond. This explains why everyone feels differently during an OBE. Consciousness follows the subtle mind – the mind which carries our feelings, tendencies, buried desires and aspirations. Hence the difference in OBE versions. It’s funny how casually we often say ‘home is where heart is’ without knowing the depth of these words. In the present context, ‘home’ is the dimension you would want to go to and ‘heart’ is your subtle mind, leading the way. Your ‘home’ can be as peaceful and loving as the karmic (psychic) impressions that you create while you’re alive, or can be as spiteful, vengeful and nightmarish as your living reality is. Meaning, by consciously altering your reality, starting today, you will be laying a foundation for a wonderful dimension beyond. It’s all in your hands. You are the Creator and you are the Destroyer. It’s your choice who you want to be.
This is how Heaven and Hell were conceptualized by humans. Ancient people probably had conflicting visions of the ‘world beyond’ which might have lead them to believe that there are two places where soul travels after leaving the body. Well, in a way, the age old theory is not entirely baseless. Heaven and Hell are the just the names that were given to these two dimensions. Fact remains that we create our own Heaven and Hell based on our karmic impressions and that’s precisely why these two places / realms / planes appear differently to different people, after they cease to exist in their physical form.
Whatever said and done, OBEs are certainly eye openers as they offer a sneak peek of the subtler dimensions, defying laws of time and space. The person experiencing it, at least, gets to know the direction in which he is bound to drift after he let’s go of the anchor that holds him to the physical plane. Feels good to know what lies beyond…in my opinion. What do you think?